In 1975 Srimala (formerly Jane Goody) was ordained into the Western Buddhist Order by Sangharakshita whilst pregnant with her second child, and in this book she recounts the challenges of combining motherhood with the spiritual path. Presenting her experiences as a series of snapshots, she also describes her struggle to transform her sexual relationships - to break with the romantic myth and her dependency on men, and to move towards chastity and contentment.